taevachi's journal

Friday was very beautiful. Snow has covered the land but the sun was shining, so it was very bright during the day: the best kind of winter day. When it's late and gets dark, it always feels depressing. This weekend offered some nice, bright mornings to enjoy tea.

On Saturday, I went to a book fair. I got some books, mostly about history, as well as a collection of poems by Isa Asp. She was a woman who lived in the late 1800s but died of tuberculosis at the age of 19. Some people think some of her poems have sapphic elements to them, so she has been dubbed the "Sappho of Finland".

On Sunday, I went weaving and oh boy did it kick off. Once you start, it becomes very fast to advance with. I did way more than what is shown in the photo below but that was me at some point yesterday. The pattern is traditional to this region, but the colours are fully based on Portal, lol. I also showed some new Hazbin episodes to my friend. Unfortunately we didn't get to episode 4 yet, which is of course the crazy bomb episode.

Happy Fathers' Day! (Yesterday when I started writing this.)

I did a crime, a fraud! I found an old, abandoned iPad at the workplace. Usually if stuff is bought but abandoned by the unit that owns it: it's free real estate. Unfortunately, the tablet was locked and nobody at the unit remembered the credentials anymore. You know how it is with Apple products. I was not able to find the receipt for that iPad in our system, but I found the receipt of another one bought around the same time, so... I changed the serial number on that receipt with inspect element and sent it to Apple like please remove the Activation Lock. It was a Friday, and I felt really bad about it because it's kinda fraud even though it was legitimately our iPad. Welp, Apple approved it anyways and now I have a iPad! I've never owned an Apple product before. Then my friend was just like, oh that's so old, you could get my own iPad, it's way newer. Lol.

My cats are sooooo cute. Even though one of them keeps having poopy butt problem. My gf owns a trimmer though so I was thinking of using it to shave her butt, it's very hairy. Also she's done dumb things like, accidentally stepped on poop in the litter box and then spread that stuff all over the floors and my sheets I had just changed an hour ago! Thanks a lot. I still love you, baby. I hope she also loves me even though I do evil things like forcibly clean her poopy paws.

I made an accident and joined a band. I mean I do singing at this music academy, and they have practise bands that were missing vocalists so I volunteered for one. My big dream is still, someday, to be able make folk music. I kinda wished I could use GarageBand on the iPad but I'd have to figure out how to get some older version on it because the one on AppStore doesn't work.

Unfortunately my new gf has many issues. She overdoes it with the alcohol. She's been advancing well in her therapy and is able to do a lot of things she didn't use to be able to, but there's still such a way to go. She is also too scared to use glasses, but she doesn't see well. I wish she would learn to use them quick so we could actually like, watch movies or something together without having to sit right in front of the TV. I really wish she's gather the courage to meet my parents too since I'm very close to them.

At weaving, I was finally able to actually start the weaving process itself, lol. There is A LOT you need to do and get ready before you can even start with the weaving itself. My friend is forcing me to play Dark Souls too. I feel like I don't have much time to do, well, much anything, and that's unfortunate. Also big money stuggles since I still owe for that new shower ^^''

I wanna make more decorations for my walls in the form of printing out art that's been made about mythology and folklore. At my hairdressers' there are great decorations, including the Birth of Venus, but I guess I don't want something that "basic".

Also, the new season of Hazbin has been quite c r a z y.

Look I don't have functioning brain. I don't know what happens. I just try to make it through the week and then I forget EVERYTHING. There was like Midsummer and stuff, it was nice. And we had local Pride which rocked. Oh, I also went to an anime convention (and cosplayed a mythology figure because of course I did). Next week should be warm to, it's time to summer. I already had my ~week long summer holiday last month though.

But like the only thing in my mind, the only thing I feel like I can care about, is pre-Christian mythic poetry. So there. Mom said I should get tested for autism.


I've been trying to fix a whole bunch of Wikipedia articles that have been legit ass, in addition to creating new ones. Right now we're at:

Fixed: Hiisi + Kalevi (mythology) + Joukahainen + Kuutar + Louhi + Nyyrikki + Rauni + Sampsa Pellervoinen + Tellervo

Partially fixed: Ahti + Haltija + Iku-Turso (creature) + Ilmarinen + Kratti* + Lempo + Mielikki + Pekko + Päivätär + Sampo + Tapio (spirit) + Ukko + Vellamo + Väinämöinen + Äkräs
*= Needs fixes but the kinds I'm not able to make.

Brand new: Baltic Finnic creation myths + Hongatar + Hiiden hirvi + Jábmiidáhkká + Jumi + Juoksáhkká + Kave (Finnish mythology) + Kihovauhkonen + Kivutar + Käreitär + List of minor Finnish deities + Maaemä + Máttaráhkká + Rahko + Sáráhkká + Soini + Tuulikki (spirit) + Uksáhkká + Virankannos


I feel a sense of loneliness frequently, but I've also been socializing a lot, so it's probably not worrying. I'm starting my singing classes again next month after a year's (involuntary) break, and I also picked up weaving. My friend also kind of got me excited about making zines by just... drawing on normal paper. Maybe I'll share some at some point. I don't really care about how "skilled" it is when it's about figures and concepts that don't have any supposed appearance anyways.

I have dreams of starting my own little coven of... mythic poem enthusiasts. xD Unfortunately, I don't live in a very populous place.


I watched two new films. First was Smoke Sauna Sisterhood (2023, Savvusanna sõsarad). I saw it accidentally when I was staying the night at my friend's, supposed to sleep on the couch which had TV in front of it. And this film was on TV. Absolutely heartbreaking experiences were recounted in this film, but that's the point of it. Just listen.

I also saw SATAN’S GUIDE TO THE BIBLE (2023) which I thought was just a Youtube video but apparently, it's also a film. In it, Satan is teaching some fundie family children about historical inaccuracies in the Bible. They made Satan hot in this, which is "based", of course. Anyways, I like history but never before really cared about the historical accuracy of the Old Testament. Well, now that I know more about it, and having seen stuff-that's-in-the-Bible-but-never-actually-happened used as justification for what's happening in Gaza, AND also being kind of pissed of at the removing of Athirat from the pantheon, AND AND having to had to hear dumb shit from conservative Christians because of Pride, I finally got off my ass and ended my membership to the state church which I had been a member of since birth. The first time I tried, the website didn't work. They really tried to make this as difficult as possible. I haven't talked about this to anyone because I know some find it offensive if I say what I think but, I hope at least on my own blog I can say it.

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I had no mood for Christmas this year. However, I got just absolutely wonderful xmas gifts <3

I got 2 dl size cups, so smaller than the average mug = great for coffee and tea! I also got plenty of tea :] I got a lovely pin depicting Finnish traditional clothing my friends had found at a recycling center. It's obviously now on my ita bag. Same friend made handicrafts for me with the looped square ⌘ symbol. Another friend made me cat paw half gloves. I got long (over the knee) knitted wool rainbow socks. Friend got me Scaramouche art and poster :') I got a lot of chocolate and other snacks too, of course. I got flavoured syrup. More warm clothes. Stickers, keychain, a tiny plushie... And more but I can't remember right now (and can't check because I'm at work, booooo).

I just felt so touched by the presents, and so impressed by my friends' handicraft skills! It kind of encouraged me to get back into embroidery, so I dug up my cross stitch project that's been left untouched for years.

Again, I accidentally went on an unplanned hiatus. I have not visited this website at all for over a month.

The reason is that I have been very tired. Physically tired due to iron deficiency anemia, not helped by anxiety and depression. Last week, I had a week long sick leave due to this tiredness. I have dropped a lot of stuff for x amount of time because I am too tired. I have not read anything here because I am too tired.

Good news is, after this week, my life should become better. I will get rid of my a-hole coworker, and I also got a stable position here so I will have stable income in the future. I can start planning for the future for real this time. The local queer advocacy group also started organizing coffee nights, which is something I've definitely needed.

I have played a lot of video games recently, mainly Civ 6 (I got addicted AGAIN) and Valheim.

My date went well and we intend to see again.

Well, now I know why I'm so unbelievably tired all the time! I went through tests and indeed, I have no iron stored in my body to the point I have become anemic. As soon as I leave work, I'll go to the pharmacy.

If I get this situation better, I think I'd have more energy and therefore I could draw more Sethoscara. Speaking of Sethoscara, a Scara ship poll tournament was made by someone on Twitter and some people are really upset over the fact that Sethoscara easily beat Chiscara and Scaramona, aka the "og ships". They are seriously underestimating the appeal and popularity of Sethoscara! A lot of people like Sethoscara and it's time for everyone to open their eyes and see that!

I have been picking a lot of blueberries with my friend in the forest and I guess it was only a matter of time: I sank into a swamp. Only one leg and knee deep though, luckily. But it was truly a comedic scene when I turner the boot upside down and poured out a fair share of swamp water.

It was nice to bake with my self picked berries though!

I also drove about 2 hours to another city for an anime convention and although there were disappointing things, there were also very nice things. I'm kind of itching to go back there... I wanna shop and eat ramen and go to a gay bar ^^''' I didn't know they have one.

I'm back to work. Monday was horrible and I got anxiety but the rest of the days have been fine so far.

My poem is now on display in that queer art exhibit I talked about earlier. I think it turned out... nice. This Saturday, my town has the Pride parade.

Did you spot the birth of a new ship? The ship called Sethoscara was born on Monday. It's about Scaramouche and Sethos from Genshin. I got very excited about it immediately! I've been doing a bit of art so far, maybe I will write a fic if inspiration strikes? I've also never witnessed the birth of a ship and tag so closely! It was great to be there to read the first Sethoscara fic when no others even existed yet.

I've been playing new video games, mainly Valheim and Project Zomboid. Valheim has been fun and chill in the Minecraft way, I assume as I've never played Minecraft. Project Zomboid is a bit scary and stressful but it's so much more fun in multiplayer.

My Sethoscara fanart under cut.

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I've been having some issues with eating this week, so for a few days I haven't eaten a meal. Earlier today though I was eating stuff and I still have dinner for tonight so it should be normal today. It was so nice to eat earlier today, it made me feel much better. However, I've been very sleepy today and mostly like, in coma mode or napping.

But I checked my weight for the first time in months and it had gone up. Now I weight about 7 kg more than a year ago. It's a bit weird when I don't eat more than before, or less healthy than before, nor do I exercise somehow less. I walk to a lot of places all the time. So I've wondered if it's because of the meds. It's kind of weird to gain weight when it has remained stable for the past 10 years at least.