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I did so well at work honestly. I didn't even start crying, I was able to act normally. And today I'm on the phone all day so I don't even need to socialize. Just as I wrote this, I got an email arghhhhh.
I had a doctor's appointment and I got a prescription for heartburn meds so, one mission accomplished. But those pills were quite expensive, like over 3 euros per pill. I also got a meeting booked with my short-therapist. But it's 2 weeks from now and I constantly feel like shit. I need patience...
Like is it bad if I have free time? No, that's fine. But I'm just soooo stressed out about running out of money like... I have people who could help and stuff but I guess it's about shame? Like it's shameful not to be employed and stuff. I really need to unlearn this liberal capitalism shit.
I started knitting leg warmers for myself. Like proper black and red stripes emo leg warmers. I have kind of forgotten how to knit though since it's been 10 years so it's going to be a bit slow in the beginning.
I also constantly feel like I wanna draw but then I open Clip Studio Paint like, ok what now. And stare at the empty canvas.
Coworkers just brought me a snack. I guess they don't hate me then.
We have presidential elections and the final two candidates are a straight guy from the liberal capitalist party and a gay guy from the green party. And I just read in the news that 40% of the people voting for the straight guy do so because they wouldn't vote for a gay person. And to 20%, that was a big reason. It's so disgusting like I am going to be so aggressively lesbian just to piss off the losers around me. Already put the rainbow flag on the balcony last year out of spite.
But hey, positives. Yesterday I participated in the![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
small_fandoms Drabblethon which is the first time I've written something in ages. Writing and drawing, my old hobbies, maybe we can get there.
I had a doctor's appointment and I got a prescription for heartburn meds so, one mission accomplished. But those pills were quite expensive, like over 3 euros per pill. I also got a meeting booked with my short-therapist. But it's 2 weeks from now and I constantly feel like shit. I need patience...
Like is it bad if I have free time? No, that's fine. But I'm just soooo stressed out about running out of money like... I have people who could help and stuff but I guess it's about shame? Like it's shameful not to be employed and stuff. I really need to unlearn this liberal capitalism shit.
I started knitting leg warmers for myself. Like proper black and red stripes emo leg warmers. I have kind of forgotten how to knit though since it's been 10 years so it's going to be a bit slow in the beginning.
I also constantly feel like I wanna draw but then I open Clip Studio Paint like, ok what now. And stare at the empty canvas.
Coworkers just brought me a snack. I guess they don't hate me then.
We have presidential elections and the final two candidates are a straight guy from the liberal capitalist party and a gay guy from the green party. And I just read in the news that 40% of the people voting for the straight guy do so because they wouldn't vote for a gay person. And to 20%, that was a big reason. It's so disgusting like I am going to be so aggressively lesbian just to piss off the losers around me. Already put the rainbow flag on the balcony last year out of spite.
But hey, positives. Yesterday I participated in the
small_fandoms Drabblethon which is the first time I've written something in ages. Writing and drawing, my old hobbies, maybe we can get there.
