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Good news and bad news.
First of all my gf visited here for a week and it was greattttt. We took a trip to the south together to see her favourite fish in a museum (xD) and also hung out here because obviously. Time went so fast though, that stressed me out haha. So yeah after dropping her off to the airport I get into the car and cry but it is what it is...
Sooooooo, I did not get the job I was applying for. So far, two people who joined the organization after me have been favoured in hiring for more stable positions. So I'm just about to fuck off from there because seriously. However, I still have one month of work there left. It's not a lot since it's just February, the shortest of the months. But it's still pretty annoying. I'm just pissed off mostly.
I had 1,5 months of feeling better, but it's over now. I started feeling a strong sense of self-hatred and worthlessness. It feels like I can't do anything in my life because no one would want me. I know my gf doesn't want me to do anything bad to myself, so for her sake, I won't. But by God do I feel like worthless dross.
I will be fine. I know it. If I don't find a new job soon, I'll work on hobbies like drawing and music. But I still feel so bad.
Ew, I suddenly started feeling nauseous. I must stop now.
First of all my gf visited here for a week and it was greattttt. We took a trip to the south together to see her favourite fish in a museum (xD) and also hung out here because obviously. Time went so fast though, that stressed me out haha. So yeah after dropping her off to the airport I get into the car and cry but it is what it is...
Sooooooo, I did not get the job I was applying for. So far, two people who joined the organization after me have been favoured in hiring for more stable positions. So I'm just about to fuck off from there because seriously. However, I still have one month of work there left. It's not a lot since it's just February, the shortest of the months. But it's still pretty annoying. I'm just pissed off mostly.
I had 1,5 months of feeling better, but it's over now. I started feeling a strong sense of self-hatred and worthlessness. It feels like I can't do anything in my life because no one would want me. I know my gf doesn't want me to do anything bad to myself, so for her sake, I won't. But by God do I feel like worthless dross.
I will be fine. I know it. If I don't find a new job soon, I'll work on hobbies like drawing and music. But I still feel so bad.
Ew, I suddenly started feeling nauseous. I must stop now.
